Friday, January 19, 2007

Who are the grassroots?

Who are the grassroots? He asked…

We are the grass roots’ they replied in unison

This question was posed to 30 NGO’s at one of the first Wake Up Pune meetings I attended. Everyone agreed that in order to wake up Pune to the high prevalence rate of HIV in the city we all need to work collectively, pull our resources together to not only empower others but also empower ourselves, the local charities and NGO’s of Pune to make a difference.

Wake Up Pune was to be the first city wide HIV awareness campaign in Pune, reaching out to all stratums of society, not only the socio-economically disadvantaged. It was a very exciting time, jam-packed with rallies, awareness sessions, and rock concerts... However I wish Han’s question had stuck more rigorously in all of our heads…that the grassroots is not comprised of ‘others’ needing empowerment…we too are the grassroots. If we really want to make a difference, we must come together and stand united under a common aim, we must find some mutual ground that is worth fighting for…only then can we enter the battle. This will mean swallowing ones ego and sidelining personal objectives…but in the end it is worth it. It is in this way that I believe participatory NGO’s of the campaign lost sight of themselves as key stakeholders at the grassroots level of the Wake up Pune campaign.

We all have our personal agendas, I my self have several for getting involved in the campaign and working at DGS. Collectively within our individual charities and NGO’s we will have agendas. Agendas being a meeting point between motivations and pressures. Whilst motivations can unite organisation, pressure only divides. These pressures may include financial and human resources, overloading of responsibilities, deadlines and reports, in effect the mundane everyday reality of working in the social service sector. This constant friction between motivations and pressures was extremely evident in the involvement of the different organisations within the campaign.

From each organisation those involved in Wake Up Pune would have had numerous additional responsibilities, thus despite sharing the motivation they were constrained in realising it. These constraints played out in terms of the poor number of sessions conducted, questionnaires distributed and Wake up Pune events and meetings attended. We must all find some way of negotiating our individual organisational pressures with the collective motive of decreasing the level of HIV in the city.

Wake Up Pune still has a long LONG way to go, not only in terms of raising awareness about HIV, battling stigma and discrimination and prompting attitude and behaviour change, but in regards to making Wake up Pune a sustainable coalition not ‘for’ but ‘of’ the ‘grassroots’. Local NGO’s need to realise their need to be empowered, to stand united, to share resources and together challenge unequal structures of power. We must lay down the groundwork, a stable platform upon which we can fight the battle, only then do we stand to make our voices heard.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

The Chaos Within - Dance with the tiger

The DISHA Clients dancing on the roof top

11th January 2007.

Pune, Maharashtra , India

Still here. And if the first eleven days of 2007 are anything to go by, we will probably be here tomorrow, and the many tomorrows that follow.
  • Project proposals need to be written.
  • Annual project and team evaluation.
  • Meetings with community leaders to help them understand why we need a shelter home for PLHIV (the new politically correct acronym).
  • The DISHA Mobile Awareness Vehicle (D-MAV) needs to be painted and outfitted. Remember the A-Team van?
  • A Pune city youth coalition is in the pipeline.
  • The Church of Scotland HIV/AIDS Project coordinator visits us in Feb.
  • Youth centres will start in the Tadiwala road community in April.
  • Abstracts for ICAAP 2007 Colombo and IAS 2007 Sydney - scholarships to be applied for...
  • The Ramtekadi and Bibwewadi nutrition centres are about to begin...
And more, much more...

Don't forget holding the hand of those who are about to die, as they struggle for breath and look at you with confusion, even betrayal... who betrayed him... her? I don't know... and yet, what the Wake Up Pune campaign has spewed up is that there is a sense of collective betrayal when a man or woman lies in the corner of a room dying of something he doesn't need to die of, if only...

Harsh. Can we blame ourselves collectively for the death of some random who got infected with HIV and now lies dying and forgotten. So what if HIV is a chronic condition that people can now live with and no longer need to die of... Collective responsibility - Impractical, juvenile, does no fucking good. Idiot. Me.

The senselessness can be overpowering though. The 'what ifs' numb us... and then we exhale, smile, shake our collective head, and continue on this journey that will in the end consume us.

Tiger by the tail... more visceral really, the tiger looks back at us in the mirror, the tiger is in the tired smiling eyes of beneficiaries, beautiful and majestic, powerful, we can never leave, escape. If we do, life will disembowel us.

So... what do we do?

Dance with the tiger.